’When you’re an actress, you can escape reality for a while and become someone else, but you can’t escape yourself…’

Today, the famous Australian-American actress, Oscar winner Nicole Kidman, the happy wife of musician and singer Keith Urban, is raising two lovely daughters.

But it wasn’t always like that.Her path to happiness was thorny and painful. Nicole Kidman had a very

painful divorce from actor Tom Cruise, which made her grow up and look at life in a completely different way.

And everything started like a fairy tale. But how can it be otherwise when you are the wife of all women’s

favorite, the talented actor and handsome Tom Cruise? Girls all over the world dreamed of him, but he chose her, Nicole.

The actress dreamed of how they would live together all their lives, give birth to a bunch of children and be happy like no one else in the whole world.

But all these dreams were shattered in one night when the marriage first cracked and then completely collapsed.

Nicole Kidman suddenly found herself alone, like in the desert. It was very painful and hurtful, but on the other hand the trials helped her grow up and really mature.

And her journey to the land called Love began the day Kidman met what she thought was the most beautiful man on Earth at the time, the gorgeous hero of Tom Cruise’s Top Gun (1986).

Nicole Kidman fell in love with 28-year-old Tom Cruise in 1990, when they were filming Days of Thunder together.

Cruise was already a famous actor at that time, and 22-year-old Nicole was just starting her film career.

Their relationship developed very quickly, despite the fact that Tom Cruise was still married to actress Mimi Rogers at the time.

Their marriage could not be called happy, so Cruise immediately broke up when he met the red-haired beauty Nicole Kidman.

The romance was so intense that on Christmas Eve 1990 they got married and immediately went to a ski resort. They didn’t just love each other, it was an unearthly passion and attraction.

Besides, they were also incredibly good; Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman were considered the most beautiful and happiest couple in Hollywood.

In public, they looked truly in love and happy, but their family bed was not, as they said, strewn with rose petals.

Speaking in Vanity Fair many years after her divorce, Nicole recalled: ‘The thing is, when you focus on each other and you’re in this

‘fairy tale’, it’s really intoxicating. You begin to forget about yourself, that you also exist, because you are one whole.

It is very romantic and creates an incredible sense of intimacy. Indeed, no one can understand you as deeply as the person sleeping on your right side.’’

‘It was so magical, so passionate and indescribable that I can’t even put it into words,’ said Nicole Kidman. I was just amazed by Tom. Honestly, I was ready to give my life for him.

But things didn’t go the way Nicole Kidman wanted. Perhaps because he was so young, he saw the world differently.

‘I became famous at a very young age. And finally, as the wife of the famous and beloved actor Tom Cruise.

I realized that I became a star precisely because I am Tom’s wife. Besides, my first roles in films, in my opinion, were not the best, so I got used to living as if in the background.’

The actress admitted that she often thinks about it. ‘I thought that I did not deserve fame and popularity.

Even when it came to the Oscar, I was thinking about my husband. And my job is to wear a beautiful dress and modestly accompany her to the award ceremony.’

During the filming of the movie Eyes Wide Shut, a crisis arose in the relationship of the stars, the couple broke up in February 2001, when there was very little left until their 10th wedding anniversary.

Although Nicole Kidman became famous and popular, it did not make her feel better after the divorce. It seemed that there was a hole in it, a void.

And he understood it very well. Especially after winning an Oscar for Best Performance in The Hours.

When she was presented with the coveted statuette, Nicole Kidman spoke so transparently that critics recognized her speech as the most candid in the history of the ceremony.

And only he knew what it cost her. After all, the wound after the divorce was not only not healed, it was not ’healed’.

‘I could not accept the reality, overcome the pain,’ she recalls. When you’re an actress, you can escape reality for a while and become someone else, but you can’t escape yourself…

I sat down with the Oscar statuette at the Beverly Hills Hotel and felt as lonely as ever. before. How naive I was to hope that it would cure me. No, it hasn’t gotten any easier…

Nicole Kidman admitted to the journalists of Who magazine. ‘After the divorce, there came a moment that I call ‘lonely existence.’

I was really broken and my heart was broken. I never thought in my life that our love would end like this…’

However, fate gave the actress a second chance at love. In January 2005, she met Australian singer Keith Urban. The couple legalized their relationship on June 25, 2006 in Sydney, Australia.

On July 7, 2008, their long-awaited daughter was born, and two years later, another one. Her youngest child was carried and born by a surrogate mother, but is Kidman and Urban’s biological daughter.

She now remembers her first marriage with a bitter smile. ‘I was very young when I married Tom. Now I look back and think. ‘What was that?’

‘After the divorce, I spent quite a long time alone. I think it’s for the best. After all, when I got married for the first time, I was actually still a child. And I had to grow up.’